Dear God,

Thank you for today for giving me peace and comfort throughout the day. We were busy but You helped me stay stress free and calm. I felt Your hands around me today and I appreciate that. I am thankful for Your love and forgiveness. Help me to continue to remember Chris and I am thankful you used Alex and I and family to shine Your love to him so that he could be there with you. I know You knew before we were born that this was going to happen, I don't understand why but I am trusting You because You have ALL things planned out perfectly. Please let him know that I still love and miss him so much. Help fill this emptiness with your love. I thank You for the love story we have and the beautiful little girl that You gave us. Help his family to heal and to seek You. I continue to pray for friends and family that need Your healing touch for sickness, disease, cancer, despair, and salvation. I continue to praise You for everything You have and going to do for us. I give you all my worries and pain and myself to You and I pray you will do Your will with them. I just can't thank you enough for being a forgiving, merciful, loving God. Help me to become more stronger in my faith and life. I thank you for helping me with the emotions I don't want that I've had for the past couple weeks. I praise Your Name. Thank you so much and continue to hold me this week. Love Always, LA

Dearest Chris,

I love you so much. I am sorry that the medication and doctors didn't help you. I just wish you could've waited for God to heal you. I understand though because the pain was so bad. I never told you how much I felt your pain. I am sorry and I am so glad that you found God two years ago. I just wish that your faith would've been stronger. Alex is doing well, better than me, I think. She is now starting back up saying sleep tight don't let the bedbugs bite, before bed. She loves you too. It's been hard living in this house you designed. I am trying to get along with your brother and sister-n-law. But you know how they are. Please continue to pray with me for peace and comfort in that area. You know you were and I am still hurt by them. I got rid of poky today because I think she is the one that keeps messing the carpet plus she didn't like you. I have your cat that likes to snuggle at night with me.(reminds me of you but furrier) I gave Sue 2 of your 3 rosaries since she knows what they are and I don't. I kept one for Alex for later so she has a piece of your childhood. Thank you for leaving rough drafts of notes I didn't keep to remind me of our love story. You are such a great writer. Sue gave me a lot of cake pans and she told me she knows how much I enjoy doing cakes that I might want to sell cakes. That was so hard to take from her because you kept telling me that and even had a brag book of cakes to show people. I remember the time you came home and said I got you an order for a 3-tier wedding cake and 2 sheet cakes for a wedding. We did it!! My first one but we did it. We even made our own wedding cake. I enjoyed that, not many people can say they made their own together. Thank you for loving me and Alex so much that you put us at the top of the list. Love Always, Hunnybunny