Ok what a week this has been. I went home this past weekend and injured both my ankles really bad. Spent half of Saturday at a Redimed and rest of Saturday fighting friends and family to keep me from moving. I am not a sit still person. I need to be up and doing. Drove home against doctors orders he wanted me to stay an extra day or two but understood why I needed to drive. Went to work Monday and Tues. and the pain got worse. Now I am frustrated because even though the note said one week off or limit hours I need a release so now more money out. I want to be at work and I am having a hard time not being stubborn or prideful about this taking off work. I am sick and tired of this year. I am trying to praise God right now but it is too frustrating for me and the sad part is I did this to myself. I chose to get up on the landscaping and then step down and drive and walk on it. I however didn't ask to be widowed, depressed,sickness in May, move out of my home,sickness last week. I did however ask for a godly man in my life since Chris wasn't healed, guess I didn't need to see a miracle of God because I already believed in His miracles and love. God has provided a relationship for me that is focused on God first. It feels great to feel free in God and to know who I am in Him and for myself and to actually get to know a person before emotions got involved. I am still happy reguarding Chris' side of family situation. I am no longer allowing them to put me in a pit and keep me there. I am standing on a Firm Rock. I appreciate the prayers for Alex and I. They do help. I am praying and hoping that God will heal me these next two days. I need a miracle for myself right now. I am the sole provider and I need to work. I am out of sick days after Friday. I am closer to God than I have been. In Bible study last night towards the end Beth Moore said have you ever felt like you put yourself in this situation and then you convince yourself you have to endur the consequences because you did it to yourself? That is me in this one. But then she went on saying, God is a God of healing, there is nothing NOTHING let me say it again NOTHING He can not change the outcome to. Praise the Lord.