I took my nephew and daughter easter shoe shopping two weekends ago and when at mall took them to see easter bunny as well. It is very rare for grandma and grandpa to have a picture of both grandkids together so we got them an easter gift of a picture together.

Well, these past couple weeks have brought me down. It was like I couldn't breathe with everything that was coming at me to make me question my faith again. Thankfully God revealed Himself to me just when I needed to have a sign to stay strong in Him. He used others to help me press through the storm and be able breathe alittle better. I can say that I am doing much better now as several of the situations are settled. The one remaining will probably remain for awhile yet and I am praying it will not hit me as bad next time.

Since I have had to dish out alot of money to do taxes and pay Uncle Sam, it has put a big dent in my savings for a house. But God knows my desires and will have the funds and right home for us at the right time. It will be hard to find one that we both will like since we liked the one back home.

Alex and I are still doing our date night once a week. I am enjoying the time we have. We have had our ups and downs this week though as I got frustrated with the fact of difference of idea of what is clean and not. So I errupted and pointed out the uncleanliness and it was not a nice tone. I felt sick to my stomach afterwords and she went to bed crying. But this morning she woke up and apologized and so did I. So we are doing life and it gets better each time but still have ways to work on.

Since going home this past weekend, I have had a hard time breathing and feeling ill and then today even had to be in bathroom towards end of day quite often. I think it is from the train derailment of the coal cars and breathing in the air of it. Not sure as another employee has been sick for the past two days as well to where she hasn't been in to work.

Alex and I went and got our picture taken tonight for the church directory. I was not pleased on the poses but I am never pleased. I wish I would have had my hair down but still looked good. I just hate my picture taken.

I am thankful to God for giving us His Son so that we may live. I am grateful for His mercy and compassion. I am delighted that He loves me for who I am. I am unworthy of His forgiveness but am very much appreciative of His forgiveness.

Birthday back home

Well, It was a great weekend,March 13-14, when I took Alex to my parents for the week since she was on Spring Break.We left after I got off work on Friday. We met Ken at 4am Saturday and did Walmart shopping and then had breakfast at Steak and Shake. Then at 6am took Alex to parents and she went back to bed and I went to have breakfast with a friend which I got in trouble due to not eating since I was not hungry. Then at 10am had Starbucks with another friend. Met Janet, another friend from teen age, at Carlos O'kellys for lunch.We visited til 3 then I went to see my district elders from back home who just had a baby girl,day before my birthday. Then met another family from church back home and quickly caught up on life in the ten minutes we had. Then off to dinner to reserve tables to celebrate with friends and family at Logans. It was a great time and there were 16 of us. Later there was 7 of us that went bowling til 10pm. Got to bed around midnight but didn't sleep well due to Alex coughing. Thought church was at 10:30am and not 10 so spent time with mom. Then we met dad and Baughmans for brunch. It was a long and lonely ride home for me and I have done this long of drive before just fine but for some reason it just felt lonely without Alex there, even though she sleeps most of the trip. Can't wait to go get her this weekend. Here is my sister and Alex and I can't wait to go with them to Disney World end of May early June.

Its three in the morning and I am still wide awake. God has been great and friends and family has helped me to find my happiness again. This past week has been great. I went out yesterday morning and measured the snow that we still have and it was thirteen inches. I think this is the first time in a long time I have had snow on the ground on my birthday. It is ok though because God makes all things beautiful including His children.

I am sorry Alex for not taking your hand when you wanted me to during the movie. I truly do love you and adore you. Please forgive me for not taking your hand when you reached for me. Please know God is always there when you reach out to Him. He won't ever fail you. I will do my best to do better.

My review was today and it went well. Charlotte wrote that I am very pleasant to work with and with customers and that I always have a smile and am outgoing. Many friends say she described me to the tee. She later trusted me to write the months review which she does and she was pleased on what I said so she published it. I felt great.

Thank you God for giving me my life back of happiness and confidence. I will use it for Your glory. Thank you for making Iowa feel at home for me. It is great to live here. The people here are great, the woman's bible study group, co-workers and the crossroads assembly of God church gang are the bomb. I look forward to going to work and to church and to meet with the ladies. Couldn't ask for anything more right now until God wants to do more.