Peace and Joy

I am thankful to God today for many reasons. I was able to praise and worship Him today with my whole heart mind and soul. It was amazing to do that again after so long of going and always being angry or distracted. This week has been great as far as having peace about what God is doing in my and Alex's life. Those who are close to me have the peace as well. I have handled the harrassing cousin very well and I have God to thank on that one too. It helped just crying in my pew last Sunday and taking actions this week to know what God has in store for us. I am just over-joyed and peaceful emotionally and at the same time nervous and scared. One of Alex's school teachers (one who spoke at Chris' memorial) called me last night and we talked, she said I have been on her heart for about a month now but hasn't taken the time to call, so I filled her in and she said, she has the peace of what is taking place and even told me some scriptures of why she has that peace of telling me to go forward with God. I thank you God for being here always for us. I pray as you lead my steps that we grow even closer. I give you our days ahead and go before us and make it a smooth path in Your will. I give you all the praise and glory of this past week and the week to come, continue to use me and be an encouragement and help to others. I believe it is time to go on with life. In two weeks (August 6th) it will be 6 months since Chris died. I still ache for him but I haven't felt him in almost 2 months. You are still apart of my thoughts and I hope to see you when Jesus calls my name. I dislike what you did but I love you. I thank God for giving Alex and I peace from the start about your death. I love you God and I will trust you because through out life you have always been there watching over me. You have made me stronger through my storms in my life.

P.S. I LOVE YOU!!!!