Thank you for your prayers. Work went well today if you overlook the busyness of a Monday then to top it off the flu shots which the pharmacists gives which stops the whole flow of things. I met with Pastor Epley and his wife Sarah tonight. They gave me scripture and encouragement. I am thinking about what they worked with me on and I am going to try it. It may upset family members but if they truely want what is best for me and Alex they will abide by these boundaries I will be setting.

It doesn't matter who is lying to me or if these things happened. From this point on I am taking action for myself and Alex and if others have problems or issues with others they need to work it out, it is not for me to play peacemaker. I am actually debating on going back to have lunch with these people and giving them in writing the boundaries and expectations I am going to put for myself. I don't know. I like the distance for now.

I think back to when I thought I had everything all in order and being handled and deep down it wasn't. I think only one friend of my core of friends knew about Chris drinking. I focused on others so I didn't have to focus on myself. When I praised God for saving Chris not only from eternal death but alcoholism they were like what we didn't know about his drinking but praise God. I need to be needed again by others but at the same time find myself in Christ.

It was so nice to see the progress in Don and Sarah's home. It is coming along. I still say she is my decorator for when I get a home. (when they are done-eight years right Sarah?)

Alex will probably stay at her friends house across the street til I get home around 9:30 on Thursday. I hope to be able to reach out to that family. I am so thankful to God that she has friends here. She only had Jordan as a friend at Holy Cross unless you count teachers. I work with mostly women and so far no drama :) Everyone here is so nice it reminds me of Mayberry. Strangers at the pumps start conversations while pumping gas.

I want to thank Pastor Epley and Sarah for their time away from their kids and their love for the church family. I thank Don and Sarah for their support and helping with the care of Alex. I thank friends and family for their prayers for us.

I leave you with this...

Here is the words to the song.
Three in the morning,
And I'm still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I'd say,
If we were face to face,
I'd tell you just what you mean to me,
I'd tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the LORD and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why your here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

Last time we spoke,
You said you were hurting,
And I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
That I keep on praying,
Love will find you where you are,
I know cause I've already been there,
So please hear these simple truths,

Be strong in the LORD and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why your here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

From one simple life to another,
I will say,
Come find peace in the Father,

Be strong in the LORD and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why your here,
Take your time and pray,
Thank God for each day,
His love will find a way,
These are the words I would say