Tomorrow is one year since Chris died. He died on a Friday which is today. I know he would want us to have fun and enjoy the time with family and friends but do you ever want to be with them but also want to be by yourself? I want to be here with them but I am not totally here emotionally. I hate it that my foot drew attention to me and now that I left the potluck I am probably drawing attention again not meaning to. God give me the strength I need to be joyous and happy and make this about others rather than me and what I am going through. You have brought me a long way and I continue to shine my love for you and others see it. Today my old work and the accountant and others see the joy and happiness You instilled in me this past five months. Thank you. Thank you for working in Chris too. It is great that you see the whole picture and I rest comfortably in You.