Well, I made it through another week. It has been a trying week but I saw growth from last month in areas and also I am not allowing others reactions or actions to bother me as bad or long. If the rain is what it takes to praise You Jesus bring the rain! I am not giving up! I am not turning my back! I am still Yours!



I had my orthopedic appointment Thurs after having a fantastic time with Sarah at her house then for lunch at HuHot. The doctor had gorgeous blue eyes. Anyways, he is sending me to another doctor due to him thinking it is not a foot injury anymore. He thinks what happened is when you drive for a long period of time especially 8 hours and don't get out and stretch the fluids in your veins just sits there. Then when I got out of car and walked fluid rushed up through the veins fast causing the collapse of feet causing me to fall causing the injury. As far as the injury goes he says it is healed but doesn't know why foot is so swollen which he also said is swollen clear to my calf. He thinks it is a blood clot especially when I answered his question of if family has them. So I now have to go to a vein doctor to get a vein mapping to see if that is what is causing the swellness and pain. In meantime, no exercising and being careful so if it releases it doesn't go to my lungs. I know I trust God and I am in His Hands but I can't help to worry and be upset. Matter of fact, I have been up for 21 hours now with 3 of these hours trying to sleep but kept waking up every 5 minutes. God surely wouldn't have me die and leave Alex without any of her parents or having it be so close together! What happens if the worst does happen, I don't want her to be mad at God, I want her to know His love and compassion. Am I able to fly to FL with this condition with the air pressure and all? What next if it is not a bloodclot? How am I gonna lose weight and also help Alex run her mile? And more ?'s running through my head.

Today at work I ended up having to take my shoe off and put my medical boot on due to the swelling and pain. The shoe got so tight. I tried sitting but each time I sat down I needed to help customers with the others busy or on breaks. I moved up my appointment cause my boss said not to work around my schedule so I called and got one 5 days earlier which was the only earlier appt open. (Work is like that they take care of you like family) The schedule is made out 4 weeks in advance so I was thinking of them so I wouldn't let them down. So now my appt is May 12 at 8am. It is gonna be hard for me to take it easy and not do anything to cause it to errupt. You all know lately I have been impatient with it and want to exercise and run with Alex and even did the cha cha cha. I just am not one to sit still long, which drives people at work nuts and some family too. But they all love me and care for me and I do them.

Then after doctors visited with youth pastors wife from our Sunday church. We had fun and watched her son play tennis. He won all his matches. She talked to me about helping Ms Sharon with a small group. So I am praying about that. I do want to get back involved with events of the church.

I haven't told Alex cause she will worry like I am already. I will tell her when I know more. She just got her midterm trimester grades and she is still A student. Charlotte at work switched with me so I can go to her program on Monday.

God has truly blessed us and I know it was a right decision to make in moving here but it was hard one to make as well. I couldn't ask for a better place to be in my life right now. Focused on God and staying strong in Him with the help of my friends and family. My daughter and I are bonding and living life in happiness. Love to All.