Good Evening, I woke up this morning and the pain was not that bad but the swelling is still there. I went to chiropractor with Sarah,she picked me up to go. I found out I have an extra vertabrae which is the cause of my spine to curve at bottom. I have bone spurs on both my feet which he couldn't believe I haven't felt them. I need to get arch supports now for my feet. He said he will treat the spurs once my feet heal from this injury. He thinks what happened is that when I stepped down the bone that runs long ways in foot collapsed causing bone tissue to be pushed b/n and causing swelling and pain. The chiropractor got results of my x-rays from Friday and it is just badly sprained (which is worse than fracture in some cases)but I am praising God for it to be only sprained than to be broken. I am going home tomorrow for Thanksgiving for my sake. If it was for anyone else I would stay here. I am wanting to just waste away in my bed. It is hitting me worse than what I thought it would of not hosting 20 some people and cooking and entertaining them. It is also hitting me of being angry with Chris for leaving even though I understand and God has given me peace about the whole issue. I need to surround myself with family and friends and so I am leaving Tues to rest my feet Wed and then rest my feet Friday and then leave Saturday evening to rest all day Sunday and hopefully get release to go to work on Monday. I wish my parents could make this long trip but I knew this when I moved out here that they wouldn't be able to. I love each and every one of you and pray God will bless you this Thanksgiving. I am thankful to God for His many second chances and what He has done in Alex's and my lives and what He is going to be doing as well. I am thankful for family and friends which helped me get through these difficult months and days. I am thankful for the church families they both minister to me in unique ways. I love you all and thank you so much for being by my side. Happy Thanksgiving.

Ok what a week this has been. I went home this past weekend and injured both my ankles really bad. Spent half of Saturday at a Redimed and rest of Saturday fighting friends and family to keep me from moving. I am not a sit still person. I need to be up and doing. Drove home against doctors orders he wanted me to stay an extra day or two but understood why I needed to drive. Went to work Monday and Tues. and the pain got worse. Now I am frustrated because even though the note said one week off or limit hours I need a release so now more money out. I want to be at work and I am having a hard time not being stubborn or prideful about this taking off work. I am sick and tired of this year. I am trying to praise God right now but it is too frustrating for me and the sad part is I did this to myself. I chose to get up on the landscaping and then step down and drive and walk on it. I however didn't ask to be widowed, depressed,sickness in May, move out of my home,sickness last week. I did however ask for a godly man in my life since Chris wasn't healed, guess I didn't need to see a miracle of God because I already believed in His miracles and love. God has provided a relationship for me that is focused on God first. It feels great to feel free in God and to know who I am in Him and for myself and to actually get to know a person before emotions got involved. I am still happy reguarding Chris' side of family situation. I am no longer allowing them to put me in a pit and keep me there. I am standing on a Firm Rock. I appreciate the prayers for Alex and I. They do help. I am praying and hoping that God will heal me these next two days. I need a miracle for myself right now. I am the sole provider and I need to work. I am out of sick days after Friday. I am closer to God than I have been. In Bible study last night towards the end Beth Moore said have you ever felt like you put yourself in this situation and then you convince yourself you have to endur the consequences because you did it to yourself? That is me in this one. But then she went on saying, God is a God of healing, there is nothing NOTHING let me say it again NOTHING He can not change the outcome to. Praise the Lord.

Today I stayed home from work without a voice. I am getting better though. Thank you God for your healing touch. I pray your healing touch on my sister now. I was able to talk to one of my aunts tonight to get an update from her. I thank you for her success as well and that she is able to help a cousin now that needs her help. I pray a healing hand on cousin Pat Lord, you know her condition and I pray that you will ease the pain. I pray for Don and Sarah Lord this weekend as they minister to those at the Weekend to Remember seminar and for the baby Gray situation. I Praise Your Awesome Powerful Name. I thank you for helping me get out of the pits I was in and I thank you for keeping me out. I am loving you more each day. I thank you for this new relationship Lord and pray that your will be done and your love and guidance will be over it. Thank you for Alex as today she said she is here for me whatever I need she is there. She is so precious and I thank you for giving her me to be ministered to by and to be loved by and vice versa. Lord, you are the Light onto my path.