Today I brought Alex out after church and saying goodbye to our servers at Carlos OKellys. We had a nice time and she didn't complain about knees in dashboard. I complained about the smell of her though, many times. Don't feed her beans and then travel. We had a lot of laughs once we got near Waterloo because as my mom would say I need a navigator device. We made it to Sarah's and Don's after using a half tank more than needed but if that is what it takes to have laughter with my daughter I am more than happy to do so.

Yesterday, was good and unpleasant. I got an unpleasant note in mail and I am praying for God's guidance in that as far as if I should meet with her. Mom and friends planned a going away/custody party for her grandkids and they had a nice time except a little episode with Anthony and mom feeling bad afterwards because I came across the wrong way. But, both of these issues got worked out. One of my family members also talked to me in a way that shocked me. It was uncalled for and I felt like this person was putting God in a box, if God does this then I will...

I am shocked that I am not feeling overwhelmed or much nervousness. I feel bad because I read that my cousin is. I can say that I can't wait for this to be done and we don't have to travel back and forth and work out when and how to move things. I appreciate all that they have done for me like setting up appts and schooling issues and looking into uhaul and even taking time from their projects to help. I can't thank them or my family enough for their help since Chris' death.

I am lucky to have a daughter who has a big bladder like I do. We only had to stop once to get gas and take a break. Which is usually at the Iowa 80 truck stop exit. It was so nice to ride with Alex but as she would say I am not safe to drive alone because I will get lost. But the both times I went wrong she has been with me. I traveled fine last time when it was just me. :) Looking forward to bike rides and walks with her and cousins and friends. Just a relaxing time after many days of packing and moving and driving.

I better get some sleep for tomorrow. I have to unpack my car and check mail and tour school with Alex and call phone company. Then head home to be at work early Tuesday.

Be praying for those who the enemy is after. I found out today that one of my prayer partners and a friend from church is struggling with Bi-polar and hearing things like Chris. I went up to see how she was doing and she said fine but I sensed differently so after a couple of are you sure she told me. I also found out earlier this week about my jeweler's step daughter having it as well. I prayed with my friend today and I am asking as God lays it on your heart to pray for these people that the enemy will be bound and that God's promises and voice will overcome the enemy's. Having lived through this with my husband I know that this is not a light matter. It is very real and takes a toll not only on the person but those around helping them get through the rock bottom of despair and voices. Pray that God will send many strong godly people to be their support and together conquer through.

It is almost midnight. I had counseling today and she was overwhelmed (good way) by all the at peace and joy words I had. She then told me that the wait a year thing was text book and she believes this is where God is directing me now and He has opened the doors. She would stop me if it was to go live near a guy that I met on internet or something or to run away from life. I told her I have declutter my life to be a mom that I have always wanted to be to Alex. She didn't even know who she was talking to. She had forgotten this person. I told her it is because I have been in Iowa and also separated myself from people and things the enemy tries to get me down with. I am surrounding myself with good healthy people. She grew up half an hour north of Des Moines. One of my favorite guest speakers from First Assembly died Monday night of cancer. Mom even liked what he had to say. Nancy told me this tonight. I am going to miss her but I will call her and email. She loved how I stood up for myself on the phone to Sue that mom listened in on the other week. She was saying go girl about me telling Sue how I make the decisions not others because I am Alex's mother. Counseling and reading the boundaries book has really helped. Nancy gave me another title to read that is by the same author as boundaries called saved people, I think, it's written on paper out in the car. I have to read it before taking my ring off and dating. She also said I will know when it is time to take off my ring because it will be a feeling beyond understanding.
I will see her Sunday because I forgot to take her the gifts I am giving her. (sit down to read next thing) the gifts are 3 Mickey mugs because she loves mickey as well and she drinks coffee. I did keep some for myself. I am also giving her a mickey snowglobe because she helped Chris and I with our marriage of communicating with one another after becoming sober two winters ago.

You know what is funny, I am missing Iowa right now but at the same time missing here as well. Can I be split in two so I can be two places at once? I better go to bed. I got a long day ahead. I am not tired yet but will try to get there.
I got my pantry packed, games and puzzles, hutch items packed, mickey as well. I just a few dishes still and my clothes then I believe I am done.
As far as renting a truck it is very costly. It will be cheaper doing several trips.

I have to turn in my internet connection tomorrow(Friday) so unless I write in the morning I won't be on for a short time. I will try to use other sources to write on blogs but no guarantees. I love all of you.

My headache is doing better but I had to take maxalt and ibuprofen again this morning to get through the day. Tomorrow I have to turn in my internet connection so I won't be on til Sept. unless I use Sarah's on the days I will be out there taking things back and forth. I have counseling tonight since she was sick on Tuesday. I am trying to get motivated on packing the rest of the things so I will be done and can just take trips back and forth to move. It is depressing here with nothing on walls and shelves.

Here is a cute saying for today that a regular customer told us he is in his 90's... I named my old car, do you know what I named it? I named it constipated because it couldn't pass anything.

I found out today that since I was in a 50 zone that they only do 10 over in order to do the deferred so it now will show on my license for 7 years and cost me 141.50. So I will now set my cruise control more often or atleast when I have a migraine. I'm ok with it, it was my mistake and I don't have a huge mortgage anymore to pay. I am proud of myself for this being the 1st in over 11 years.